"I just wanna go on more adventures. Be around good energy. Connect with people. Learn new things. Grow. "
I’ve *finally* found my way back to yoga
I’ve been struggling with my weight and gained back A LOT that I’ve worked so hard to lose (like 40lbs — ugh).
I think my main “problems” were two-fold:
- I was operating out of sheer will power for the wrong reasons…..
- Eventually I burned myself out and used up all my willpower for what I was doing….
So, after STP, I started thinking about my tendency to do really well and then binge over and over and over again. I wasn’t going anywhere and plateau’d for a LONG time.
During that time I also read Women, Food, and God and decided to give up “dieting” for a long time. I wanted to solely focus on exercise and mindful eating. Sadly, that was not enough to keep the weight off and I started to gain again.
Yet, despite all the set backs and the disappointment I’m not giving up. Now I’m working from a different, hopefully healthier, mindset. Instead of thinking, "I have to be skinny… I have to look good… I don’t like my body, etc etc etc." I’ve been working on self love. Loving my body as it is. Loving it for doing it for what it can do right now.
That said, I still want to lose. I want life to be exciting, fun, and full of activities I enjoy. I don’t want my weight to hold me back from things I love. So, I’ve been working on loving my body as it is and STILL working to change it…. being hopefully optimistic
It’s really been tough balancing body love, self acceptance, allowing myself the foods I want and still holding myself accountable. Lately, though, it really feels like things are falling into place.
Tonight I even found my way back to yoga. FINALLY. It’s been MONTHS since the last time I tried and I admit the online class I picked to start was a little too tough to start (I’ve lost so much strength and flexibility).
But, right now, that doesn’t matter. I’m beyond proud of myself. Yay.
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